We have to be great in a situation that is not always perfect. This war will be won or lost in our own minds.
Life is one big mind game, but usually you are playing against yourself.
The human mind is always trying to find the easier path. That’s why mindset is important because you’re continually having to push your mind towards the harder path, which ultimately gets you a lot more.
Don’t let anybody get advantage over you. You have to change your mindset. Find where you can get the advantage and then dominate that area.
You have to turn that around yourself, no one is coming to save you. You have to put work, effort behind everything in life, you need to put friction. You have to get to the point in your life where anything you should have done but didn’t do, bothers you.
Stay in the fight
I was worn to the nub. Same time being worn the fuck down is the price of being hard and I knew that if I quit, those feelings and thoughts wouldn’t just go away. The cost of quitting would be lifelong purgatory. I’d be trapped in the knowing I didn’t stay in the fight till the bitter end. There is no shame in getting knocked out. The shame comes when you throw in the mother fucking towel. And if I was born to suffer, I may as well take my medicine.
Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result.
When you’re getting beat consistently, hope evaporates, you stifle your emotions, but your trauma off gasses in unconscious ways.
You are your own worst enemy
My trading mistakes didn’t just vaporise just after a few victories, those moments were anchored deep in my subconscious and as a result my foundation was cracked. In a human being your character is your foundation and when you build a bunch of successes and pile up even more failures on a fucked-up foundation, the structure that is the self won’t be sound. To develop an armoured mind, a mindset to calloused and hard that it becomes bullet proof, you need to go to the source of all your fears and insecurities. Most of us sweep our failures and evil secrets under the rug, but when we run into problems that rug gets lifted up and our darkness re-emerges, floods our soul and influences the decisions which determine our character. My fears were never just about the water and my anxiety towards xyz was not just about the first phase. They were seeping from the infected wounds I was walking around my entire life and my denial of them amounted to a denial of themselves. I was my own worst enemy. It wasn’t the world, or god, or devil that was out to get me, it was me. I was rejecting my past and therefore rejecting myself. My foundation, my character was defined by self-rejection. All my fears came from that deep-seated uneasiness I carried with being David Goggin’s, because of what I had gone through. Even after I reached a point where I no longer cared what others thought of me, I still had trouble accepting me. Anyone who is of sound mind and body could think of twenty things that could have gone differently, or maybe they did not get a fair shake, or they took the path of least resistance. If your one of the few that acknowledge that, want to callous those wounds and strengthen your character, it’s up to you to go through your past and make peace with yourself, by facing those incidents and all your negative influences and accepting them as weak spots in your own character. Only when you identify and accept your weaknesses will you finally stop running from your past. Then those incidents can be more efficiently used as fuel to become better and grow stronger.
Right there on my mum’s couch, as the moon burnt its ark in the night sky, I faced down my demons, I faced myself. I couldn’t run from my dad anymore, I had to accept he was part of me, and that his lying cheating character influenced me more than I cared to admit. Before that night I used to tell people, my father had died rather than tell the truth where I came from. Even in the seals I trotted out that lie, I knew why. When you get beat up you don’t want to acknowledge getting your ass kicked, it doesn’t make you feel very manly, so the easiest thing to do is forget about it and move on, pretend it never happened, not anymore. going forward it became very important for me to rehash my life, because when you examine your experiences with a fine-tooth comb, you see where your issues come from, you can find strength in enduring pain and abuse. By accepting my father as part of me, I was free to use where I came from as a fuel.
If you allow yourself to be weak you can become so much stronger. In me being able to admit my faults, admit my weaknesses, admit my insecurities, admit my fears, I found great strength owning that. We hate owning that.
Rewrite your book, rewrite the chapters in your life, change the outlook, change the way you look at everything in life.